In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. Prov.3;6 ב”ה
“Let’s make the next few minutes last forever….”
Yom Kippur; Coming Home to Hashem 5778
Yom Kippur and true repentance, Teshuvah is so contrary to the message of the world.
Making it right with others we may have harmed, forgiving before we have been asked, humbling ourselves before our peers and before our Creator is contrary to the resounding themes of “my rights” “justification” “stand up for yourself” “win win win win win win win”.
When heading into Yom Kippur the internalization and introspection we undergo can be exceedingly meaningful, powerful and lasting. The one question we may tend to forget while obediently and actively listening (shema), seeing (re’eh) and worshiping (avodah-work) is “Why?” Why am I doing these things? WHAT IS MY MOTIVATION? Is this for the Kavod (glory) of Hashem only, am I doing it so that I can feel good, so that I can feel close to God and alight with spirituality or am I acting so that I may ‘recieve a get out of hell free’ card?
Romans 8;26 In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words; 27 and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.
When we hearken to the kowl ha shofar (the voice of the shofar) and heed the breath (ruach) breathed into this instrument for this beckons us to come alive. To be reborn. Once awakened we have now set before us a path to oneness with Hashem. Deeper than the last cycle, stronger than yesterday, living each moment to moment as if it were the most important day of our lives. Realize that today– the breath in that shofar (the symbol of this season of appointed times) is Hashem blowing on the sparks, the embers inside of our souls that are a part of Him. By the example that we set at this and every time we too are propelled to blow on the sparks in others…that the nations may light up! That the name of Yeshua be made great and glorious.
האלהי מקרב אני נאם־יהוה ולא אלהי מרחק
Ha Elocheh (the God) mikarov (innermost parts-close, at hand) ani (I am) ne’um HASHEM v’lo (and not) Elocheh (God) me’rachok (far off)
- Yirmeyahu 23; 23 “Am I only a God nearby,” declares the Lord, “and not a God far away? 24 Who can hide in secret places so that I cannot see them?” declares the Lord. “Do not I fill heaven and earth?” declares the Lord.
- Matthew 5:18 “For truly I say to you, until heaven and earth pass away, not the smallest letter or stroke shall pass from the Torah until all is accomplished.
- Luke 16:17 “But it is easier for heaven and earth to pass away than for one stroke of a letter of the Torah to fail.
- Mark 13:31 “Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will not pass away.
Devarim 4; 25 “When you become the father of children and children’s children and have remained long in the land, and act corruptly, and make an idol in the form of anything, and do that which is evil in the sight of the LORD your God so as to provoke Him to anger, 26 I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that you will surely perish quickly from the land where you are going over the Jordan to possess it. You shall not live long on it, but will be utterly destroyed. 27 “The LORD will scatter you among the peoples, and you will be left few in number among the nations where the LORD drives you. 28 “There you will serve gods, the work of man’s hands, wood and stone, which neither see nor hear nor eat nor smell. 29 “But from there you will seek the LORD your God, and you will find Him if you search for Him with all your heart and all your soul. 30“When you are in distress and all these things have come upon you, in the latter days you will return to the LORD your God and listen to His voice. 31“For the LORD your God is a compassionate God; He will not fail you nor destroy you nor forget the covenant with your fathers which He swore to them. 32 “Indeed, ask now concerning the former days which were before you, since the day that God created man on the earth, and inquire from one end of the heavens to the other. Has anything been done like this great thing, or has anything been heard like it? 33 “Has any people heard the voice of God speaking from the midst of the fire, as you have heard it, and survived? 34“Or has a god tried to go to take for himself a nation from within another nation by trials, by signs and wonders and by war and by a mighty hand and by an outstretched arm and by great terrors, as the LORD your God did for you in Egypt BEFORE YOUR EYES? 35 “TO YOU IT WAS SHOWN that you might know that the LORD, He is God; there is no other besides Him. 36 “Out of the heavens He let you hear His voice to discipline you; and on earth HE LET YOU SEE His great fire, and you heard His words from the midst of the fire. 37 “Because He loved your fathers, therefore He chose their descendants after them. And He personally brought you from Egypt by His great power, 38 driving out from before you nations greater and mightier than you, to bring you in and to give you their land for an inheritance, as it is today. 39“ Know therefore today, and TAKE IT TO YOUR HEART, that the LORD, He is God in heaven above and on the earth below; there is no other. 40 “So you shall keep His statutes and His commandments which I am giving you today, that it may go well with you and with your children after you, and that you may live long on the land which the LORD your God is giving you for all time.”
Heaven and earth will become a witness
because heaven and earth do exactly what Hashem says
being the first and last thing sustaining in physicality
they will stand as witness, ‘we did our part, why didn’t you do your part…
while you strayed we provided light and shade…
did you not hear us declare the appointed seasons for nearness to our Maker?
Just like we are faithful God is faithful doing what He says, keeping covenant …”
Heaven and earth are called as witnesses in “our trial” because we are deeply connected to both of them. We came from the dust of the earth, this is where we are placed for a time- physical, on earth. But while we are on this earth, in this flesh we are meant to be Heavenly Motivated. All our life we are meant to be working in some manner for “the sake of Heaven”. This is why we are here. We were not created to consume another doughnut, watch another show, take another nap. We have a mission, our return (complete turn around) – Teshuvah…is an essential piece in the puzzle whose picture and ‘end’ is a total healing of the whole earth.
When heaven and earth come together again in perfect union, tikun owlam, the Kingdom. This is the key to Yom Kippur. The believe that Yom Kippur means afflicting our souls in order that we remember…forgiveness was and will be accomplished. Yom Kippur and the elements of repentance and forgiveness, restoration and rebirth are the very picture of the Future we await. Yom Kippur comes to remind us:
“Mercy Is Promised! Mercy is Realized! Mercy is Accomplished!”
Read Adonai’s Prayer, through the Lens of Torah and these concepts of Yom Kippur:
Matthew 6;9 “Pray, then, in this way: ‘Our Father who is in heaven, Hallowed (yareh-feared, revered) be Your name. ‘Your kingdom come. Your will be done, On earth as it is in heaven.11 ‘Give us this day our daily bread. 12 ‘And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. (Shofar sounding freedom from debts in the Yovel)13 ‘And do not lead us into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.’14 “For if you forgive others for their transgressions, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 “But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions.16 “Whenever you fast, do not put on a gloomy face as the hypocrites do, for they neglect their appearance so that they will be noticed by men when they are fasting. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full.17 “But you, when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face 18 so that your fasting will not be noticed by men, but by your Father who is in secret; and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you. 19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 “But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in or steal; 21 for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Yeshayahu 59;1Behold, the LORD’S hand is not so short that it cannot save; Nor is His ear so dull that it cannot hear. 2 But your iniquities have made a separation between you and your God…
Yechezkiel 14; 3 “Son of man, these men have set up their idols in their hearts and have put right before their faces the stumbling block of their iniquity. Should I be consulted by them at all? 4 Therefore speak to them and tell them, ‘Thus says the Lord God, “Any man of the house of Israel who sets up his idols in his heart, puts right before his face the stumbling block of his iniquity, and then comes to the prophet, I the Lord will be brought to give him an answer in the matter in view of the multitude of his idols, 5 in order to lay hold of the hearts of the house of Israel who are estranged from Me through all their idols.”’ 6 “Therefore say to the house of Israel, ‘Thus says the Lord God, “Repent and turn away from your idols and turn your faces away from all your abominations. 7 For anyone of the house of Israel or of the immigrants who stay in Israel who separates himself from Me, sets up his idols in his heart, puts right before his face the stumbling block of his iniquity, and then comes to the prophet to inquire of Me for himself, I the Lord will be brought to answer him in My own person.
1 John 3;1 Behold what manner of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God. And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know Him. 2 Beloved, we are now children of God, and what we will be has not yet been revealed. We know that when Messiah appears,a we will be like Him, for we will see Him as He is. 3 And everyone who has this hope in Him purifies himself, just as He is pure. 4 Everyone who practices sin practices lawlessness as well. Indeed, sin is lawlessness. 5 But you know that Messiah appeared to take away sins, and in Him there is no sin. 6 No one who remains in Him keeps on sinning. No one who continues to sin has seen Him or known Him. 7 Little children, let no one deceive you: The one who practices righteousness is righteous, just as Messiah is righteous. 8 The one who practices sin is of the devil, because the devil has been sinning from the very start. This is why the Son of God was revealed, to destroy the works of the devil. 9 Anyone born of God refuses to practice sin, because God’s seed abides in him; he cannot go on sinning, because he has been born of God. 10 By this the children of God and the children of the devil can be distinguished: Anyone who does not practice righteousness is not of God, nor is anyone who does not love his brother. 11This is the message you have heard from the beginning: We should love one another.
When we sin we build an iron wall between ourselves and God. We push Him ‘out’ of our environment. Sometimes it takes us a while to realize how much we have ‘removed’ Him. Take the spouse who recently lost their mate. He remembers that on a chilly day his wife likes hot tea. He, feeling the cool breeze through the window instinctually goes to boil water in the pot. When he turns the corner to her room he finds her couch empty, blankets folded. He hardly remembered to notice that she was really ‘gone’. We take for granted the connection that we have with Hashem. We expect that He should be right around the corner even when we have become very distant- even making ourselves distant from Him. True Teshuvah is the realization that our sins have caused separation from God and this ‘space’ can be breached when we turn around (“shuv”) and return to His arms in vulnerable, intimate, naked, repentance.
Teshuvah is ultimately all about Returning to your Father.
Read the Parable of the Prodigal Son through the lens of the Torah, the lens of the Moadim, the lens of the period of the Fall Feasts of the Lord we are in the mist of- the innermost parts.
Note how very much this is a tale of Rosh Hashana, Yom Kippur and Sukkot:
Luke 15;11 And He said, “A man had two sons. 12 The younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the share of the estate that falls to me.’ So he divided his wealth between them. 13 And not many days later, the younger son gathered everything together and went on a journey into a distant country, and there he squandered his estate with loose living. 14 Now when he had spent everything, a severe famine occurred in that country, and he began to be impoverished. 15 So he went and hired himself out to one of the citizens of that country, and he sent him into his fields to feed swine. 16 And he would have gladly filled his stomach with the pods that the swine were eating, and no one was giving to him. 17 But when he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired men have more than enough bread, but I am dying here with hunger! 18 I will get up and go to my father, and will say to him, “Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in your sight; 19 I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me as one of your hired men.”’ 20 So he got up and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion for him, and ran and embraced him and kissed him. 21 And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ 22 But the father said to his slaves, ‘Quickly bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet; 23 and bring the fattened calf, kill it, and let us eat and celebrate; 24 for this son of mine was dead and has come to life again; he was lost and has been found.’ And they began to celebrate.
This is our story coming into a new year and a new cycle for 5778.
We should take the time to consider, where have we squandered the Father’s estate in our lives? Are we living like sons and daughters of the crowned King?
The days of awe are all about “coming to our senses”…Shema, Re’eh, Avodah…teshuvah. Like this son coming to his senses, realizing how much better it is to even be a slave in the Father’s house than to be left to rely upon the world… we have to make that humbling journey back Home. This is our journey into Yom Kippur. Outstanding and astounding is the notion that no matter how much we prepare or how sincere our penitence…we will fall short. But while we are yet afar off, our Father will see us and be compassionate (filled with racham!). The son hearing the wake up call is like unto Yom Teruah, his return home is like unto the Day’s of Awe (yamim noraim) the father who “covers” him with the royal robes is like unto Yom Kippur (the day of Covering- Kippur-Kaparrah-covering/atonement). The celebration of the recreation of the son, the delight in the resurrected child is the very thing we do with our Father at the Feast of Tabernacles- Sukkot. This is a lesson from the past, it is an account for our lives, it is a glimpse into the future. Baruch Hashem!
#238 (masc n) azen אָזַן- prick up the ears, to listen, to hear and answer, to hear and obey.
- Devarim 32;1 “Give ear, O heavens, and let me speak; and let the earth hear (shama) the words of my mouth. 2 “Let my teaching drop as the rain, My speech distill as the dew, As the droplets on the fresh grass and as the showers on the herb. 3 “For I proclaim the name of the LORD; Ascribe greatness to our God! 4“The Rock! His work is perfect, For all His ways are just; A God of faithfulness and without injustice, Righteous and upright is He. 5“They have acted corruptly toward Him, They are not His children, because of their defect; But are a perverse and crooked generation. 6 “Do you thus repay the LORD, O foolish and unwise people? Is not He your Father who has bought you? He has made you and established you.
#241 (masc. n) ozen אֹזֶן – ear.
- Tehillim 130;1 Out of the depths I have cried to You, O LORD. 2 Lord, hear (shama) my voice! Let Your ears be attentive to the voice of my תַּחֲנוּן supplications . 3 If You, LORD, should mark שְׁמָר (shamar) iniquities, O Lord, who could stand? 4 But there is forgiveness with You, that You may be feared (yare). 5 I wait for the LORD, my soul does wait, and in His word do I hope. 6 My soul waits for the Lord more than the watchmen for the morning; Indeed, more than the watchmen for the morning. 7 O Israel, hope in the LORD; for with the LORD there is lovingkindness, and with Him is abundant redemption. 8 And He will redeem Israel from all his iniquities.
The shoresh of Tachanun #2603 (v) Chanan חָנַן – to be inclined toward, pity, to give graciously.
Bemidbar 6:25 The LORD make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee…
#5547 (fem n) s’licha סְלִיחָה -pardon, forgiveness.
The ONLY two other contexts of s’licha are as follows:
- Nehemiah 9:13 Thou camest down also upon mount Sinai, and spakest with them from heaven, and gavest them right judgments, and true laws, good statutes and commandments:14 And made known unto them thy holy sabbath, and commanded them precepts, statutes, and laws, by the hand of Moses thy servant…16 “But they, our fathers, acted arrogantly; They became stubborn and would not listen to Your commandments.17 And did not remember Your wondrous deeds which You had performed among them; So they became stubborn and appointed a leader to return to their slavery in Egypt. But You are a God of forgiveness, Gracious (chanan) and compassionate (racham), Slow to anger and abounding in lovingkindness (chesed); And You did not forsake them.18 “Even when they made for themselves a calf of molten metal and said, ‘This is your God who brought you up from Egypt,’ And committed great blasphemies,19 You, in Your great compassion, did not forsake them in the wilderness; The pillar of cloud did not leave them by day, to guide them on their way, Nor the pillar of fire by night, to light for them the way in which they were to go.
- Daniel 9:8 O Lord, to us belong confusion of face, to our kings, to our princes, and to our fathers, because we have sinned against thee. 9 To the Lord our God belong mercies (racham) and forgivenesses, though we have rebelled against him;10 Neither have we obeyed the voice of the LORD our God, to walk in his Torah, which he set before us by his servants the prophets.11 Yea, all Israel have transgressed thy Torah, even by departing, that they might not obey thy voice; therefore the curse is poured upon us, and the oath that is written in the law of Moses the servant of God, because we have sinned against him.
This is the Shoresh for “forgiveness” #5545 (v) salach סָלַח – lightness, lifting up, to be forgiven.
- Sh’mot 34: 9 And he said, If now I have found grace in thy sight, O Lord, let my Lord, I pray thee, go among us; for it is a stiff necked people; and pardon our iniquity and our sin, and take us for thine inheritance.
Let us not forget … #3372 (v) yare יָרֵא – fear, reverence. This is the POINT for which forgiveness is granted (according to the Psalmist), “that God may be revered…”
#6304 (fem n) p’duwt פְּדוּת – division, distinction, liberation, redemption. Found only in :
- Sh’mot 8:23 And I will put a division between my people and thy people: to morrow shall this sign be.
- Tehillim 111:9 He sent redemption unto his people: he hath commanded his covenant for ever: holy and revered is his name.
- Isa 50:2 Wherefore, when I came, was there no man? when I called, was there none to answer? Is my hand shortened at all, that it cannot redeem? Or have I no power to deliver? behold, at my rebuke I dry up the sea, I make the rivers a wilderness: their fish stinketh, because there is no water, and dieth for thirst.
The Root of “redemption” is קָטַר katar meaning to burn, as in offering, or incense.
Our lives are wrought with pain, disappointment, confusion, doubt and fear.
Across the boards God’s creation is groaning for the Messiah’s return.
Now is a better time than ever to come to Hashem and lay down our “Isaac” before Him.
There may be several ‘things’ in your life you have determined may be “your Isaac”
(as we have been challenged to consider in previous lessons)…but in reality,
YOU are Isaac.
Are you ready to live a life that is no longer about “I”, “me”, “mine”…
and truly give yourSELF to Hashem?
Prepared to become the completely burnt offering- olah.
Matthew 4;19 “Come, follow Me,” Yeshua said, “and I will make you fishers of men.” 20 And at once they left their nets and followed Him…21Yeshua called them, 22 and immediately they left the boat and their father and followed Him.
Luke 18;22 “You still lack one thing: Sell everything you own and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow Me.”…“Who then can be saved?” 27 Yeshua said, “What is impossible with man is possible with God.” 28“Look,” said Peter, “we have left everything we had to follow You.” 29“Truly I tell you,” Yeshua replied, “no one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God 30 will fail to receive many times more at the appointed time—and in the age to come, eternal life.”
B’reshit 22;1… God tested Abraham, and said to him, “Abraham!” And he said, “Here I am.” 2 He said, “Take now your son, your only son, whom you love, Isaac, and go to the land of Moriah, and bring him as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I will tell you.” 3 So Abraham rose early in the morning and saddled his donkey, and took two of his young men with him and Isaac his son; and he split wood for the burnt offering, and arose and went to the place of which God had told him.
Tehillim 139:13 For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother’s womb. 14 I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully (yare) and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, and my soul knows it very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth; 16 Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; and in Your book were all written the days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them. 17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
What is my motivation?
In looking at myself, at my sins, am I seeking forgiveness (for me) or…
am I seeking closeness with God- “How do I get closer to you?”
Who doesn’t want to hit the reset button? Who wouldn’t love a new beginning? We return to the fetal position when we were yet a babe in our Father’s arms…we recall that when Moshe came back down the Mountain on Yom Kippur he clutched in his hands the second set of tablets, our second chance, our forgiveness, our atonement and covering… a promise in the form of His word which He swore before Heaven and Earth.
At this time of year it is taught that the Book of Hashem is opened and we are sealed at this moment and linked to His judgment for our lives for the rest of the year. If you are feeling unprepared or disappointed in yourself, if you are still wondering and questioning God’s intentions for your life…
perhaps it is time to look at yourself and Hashem in a different way.
We will finish this cycle of Torah together and as it ‘ends’ we roll it back once more and again start anew, but we are different people now than we were before- we will find Him in these words in a different way. Because this is a fact (no one can remain unchanged by his life and circumstances completely) consider that Hashem does not want for you to be disappointed in yourself or…in Him, perhaps His desire is that you seek out
your relationship to Him in a different way? From a different perspective?
If there is something you feel you have failed in- when coming before Hashem and really taking a look at your heart this season ask yourself:
“Is this what I wanted from me,
or is this what Hashem wanted from me?
No one can ever come closer to Hashem when he is stuck in SELF disappointment.
There are “down” times in our lives. The question is not, “why is this happening?” but, “How could I ever have needed You this much, wanted You this much, longed and yearned for You this much…if WE had not endured so much TOGETHER?” There is always a downtime before the RISE. May this time spent on your knees, humbling your flesh and baring all before Hashem enable you envision a world where there is no more sin. Imagine, and see (re’eh) a world where there is no more hurting others, no more becoming pained, a recreation and second chance to Shema (hear) and Do (avodah). Then internalize to the deepest depths: we are not yet in Heaven in this perfect place but while we wait HASHEM IS REVEALING HIMSELF TO US HERE AND NOW through every single thing we experience. Even through the pain. Even through the loss. Even through the suffering. If we can believe in moving forward (and rising!) even while we are “down” then the Heavens and Earth will bear witness that we Believed in Him no matter what, we left everything aside to walk with Him no matter how rough the terrain became in that wilderness…and as His Son testified, the whole of creation will declare that we are a redeemed people. Sons and Daughters who know how to live like sons and daughters of the Kingdom.
- John 17; 4 I have glorified You on earth by accomplishing the work You gave Me to do. 5And now, Father, glorify Me in Your presence with the glory I had with You before the world existed. 6 I have revealed Your name to those You have given Me out of the world. They were Yours; You gave them to Me, and they have kept Your word. 7 Now they know that everything You have given Me comes from You. 8For I have given them the words You gave Me, and they have received them. They knew with certainty that I came from You, and they believed that You sent Me. 9 I ask on their account. I do not ask on behalf of the world, but on behalf of those You have given Me; for THEY ARE YOURS 10All I have is Yours, and all You have is Mine; and in them I have been glorified. 11I will no longer be in the world, but they are in the world, and I am coming to You. Holy Father, protect them by Your name, the name You gave Me, so that they may be one as We are one. 12While I was with them, I protected them and guarded them by Your name, the name You gave Me. NOT ONE OF THEM HAS BEEN LOST.
- Yeshayahu 43; 1 But now, thus says the LORD, your Creator, O Jacob, And He who formed you, O Israel, “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; YOU ARE MINE! 2“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, Nor will the flame burn you. 3“For I am the LORD your God, The Holy One of Israel, your Savior…
May you be blessed on this journey back home and closer to Your Father. Knowing that we are all afar off, believing in the joy He yet has toward our approach even so…may You experience His revelation through the good and bad times of this stay on earth, until we are risen up to eternal life forevermore with Him. May you have a joyous and fulfilling Yom Kippur! Exquisitely adorned, covered in His Robes of atonement with mercy accomplished.
“Gemar chatimah tovah” (גמר חתימה טובה), “A good final sealing.”
Below are Viduy prayers which are said upon the returning of one’s soul to G‑d at the end of its journey in this world, they are also recited at Yom Kippur. This has the potential to be one of the most profound moments in a person’s life. These prayers evoke G‑d’s mercy, and beckon great atonement upon the person.
Directed toward Yeshua and in His Name, we focus on His offering and the atonement He brought through His death, resurrection and continued intercession on our behalf. Viduy reminds us that what really matters is our relationship with G‑d and with our fellow man, and not material possessions or accomplishments. It is a truly powerful message for everyone. Preparing for the Viduy: It is best for Viduy to be recited with a clear mind. Therefore, one should say it before he becomes too weak, if you are fasting. If one cannot speak, he may say the Viduy in his heart. If you do not feel convicted to fast, at least acknowledge this appointed time through personal prayer; give up a meal or luxury as an offering. This is an appointed rest day (a Sabbath of Sabbaths it is written- so perhaps observe it by fulfilling this command.)
This is the Hebrew month of Tishrei, which is the Seventh month. Yom Kippur is a biblical fast mentioned in Zechariah 8;19 “Thus says the LORD of hosts, ‘The fast of the fourth, the fast of the fifth, the fast of the seventh and the fast of the tenth months will become joy, gladness, and cheerful feasts for the house of Judah; so love truth and peace.’
I acknowledge before You, Lord my G‑d and the G‑d of my fathers, that my recovery and my death are in Your hands. May it be Your will that You heal me with total recovery, but, if I die, may my death be an atonement for all the errors, iniquities, and willful sins that I have erred, sinned and transgressed before You, and may You grant my share in the Garden of Eden, and grant me the merit to abide in the World to Come which is reserved
for the righteous.
Our G‑d and G‑d of our fathers, may our prayers come before You, and do not turn away from our supplication, for we are not so impudent and obdurate as to declare before You, Lord our G‑d and G‑d of our fathers, that we are righteous and have not sinned. Indeed, we and our fathers have sinned.
We have transgressed, we have acted perfidiously, we have robbed, we have slandered. We have acted perversely and wickedly, we have willfully sinned, we have done violence, we have imputed falsely. We have given evil counsel, we have lied, we have scoffed, we have rebelled, we have provoked, we have been disobedient, we have committed iniquity, we have wantonly transgressed, we have oppressed, we have been obstinate. We have committed evil, we have acted perniciously, we have acted abominably, we have gone astray, we have led others astray. We have strayed from Your good precepts and ordinances, and it has not profited us. Indeed, You are just in all that has come upon us, for You have acted truthfully, and it is we who have acted wickedly.
Resources: Much of this entry was learned from The Temple Institute.com, Rabbi Ari Kahn, Rabbi Shlomo Katz, The Land of Israel.com, see Home page and My Resources entry for a complete list of sources.
As always this learning is in memory of Mirjam.
I think about you everyday and miss you exceedingly at this season.
I’ll take you with me into the Sukkah my dearest one.